Just two hours in the evening, making her come while looking straight into her eyes. I feel like I haven’t been this close to anyone for so long. Yet she insists on keeping distance. I already miss her, and I know she’ll be away and will be missed more. I wonder what I’m supposed to do. I love waking up next to her. I love hugging on the couch. I love cooking together. I feel at ease around her and with her around, I’m so much more balanced in my normal life. I once almost wrote to her, “BTW, you know what I realised? You make me happy to look forward to time on my own , too. Strange, but true.”