She’s having a hard time with cold and fever, and I feel for her. I wanted to meet her for my birthday, but she can’t come, and I’ll be alone. This reminds me of almost all my birthdays, how typical. I’ve been meaning to meet her at my place, to be together with her, sleep with her, but I haven’t done that for 2 weeks now, and it’s beginning to get to me. How sad and how real.