I lost it. The fight. The fight for her. I lost it in my heart. I now see she doesn’t want to commit. I need to find someone who wants to. Who wants a life with me. With me only, who is ready to sacrifice for me. Who wants to do something together, build a life together. Who wants to commit. I need to settle down, get serious about my place, my life. And find someone to love who loves me. Who doesn’t belittle who I am, who we are. Who recognises the weight a relationship has. Who sees me worthy enough to spend a life with. I feel like I am back at square zero. I have learnt, and it will be somewhat easier. But I need to build it all again. I need to find someone I can love again.