First weekend in a very long while that I have been home, alone. Tried to meet up with some people, but can’t. I don’t exactly remember her any more down to the last detail, but I feel her affecting me right now, how I behave, my moods, my feelings towards others. She was one of the very few who could challenge me, for whom I would really think through things I have done, question my deep-rooted views. I fear I will never be over her in a sense, that she will affect me forever, as few have done before.